i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!

March 17, 2006. Friday night, my second time to be absent from work. A lazy sickness, I guess. Wow, I'm really dressed up! A body hugging sando, gray trousers, black rubber shoes and of course my Penshoppe belt bag. What about my well-combed hair? Terrific, a perfect gigolo!!!

I went out with Queen, my housemate, well to escort her way to the bus terminal. We rode a jeepney going to Jollibee, then a white bulky tricycle up to Upper Bicutan and she took an air conditioned bus going to Alabang.

Before going back to our boarding house, i decided to roam around SM Bicutan. Sayang naman ang get up ko noh!! As usual cr hopping!!! After 20 boring minutes, I went home. Before taking the jeepney. I thought of buying something to eat or drink and for i dont have coins for my fare. I stopped by in 7/11. I went over an ice cream freezer. Wow, DRUMSTICK!!!! It's been years since I've eaten something like this. I grabbed one and ate it while walking...

Suddenly, a boy followed me. tapping my elbow and poking my arm with his forefinger, saying....

" KUYA, AKIN NA LANG YANG KINAKAIN MO...SIGE NA."

I will take this opportunity to rant! (at magtatagalog ako!)

B-U-W-I-S-E-T! Yun lang. Talaga namang nakaka-kulo ng dugo ang mga pangyayari ngayong nakalipas na dalawang linggo. Alam nyo ba kung bakit?? Ang una at pinaka-malaking dahilan ng aking pagka-asar ay ang HINDI ko pagsuweldo. Pambihira...ngayon lang nangyari 'to sa akin. Ang haba ng oras na pumila ako sa 14th floor (Accounting)..tatlong oras para makuha ko yung sweldo ko (dahil hindi pa daw ayos yung ATM ko)...tapos bigla ko malalaman na wala pala yung pangalan ko sa listahan (i found out later na ito ay dahil sa hindi natanggap ng accounting yung e-mail ng supervisor ko)! Talaga naman! Actually, dalawa kaming di nakatanggap ng salary namin that day (yung isa si Pole a.k.a  Mr. Brokeback - Hi Pole!). At pareho kaming bad trip na bad trip. Paano ba naman, pinagtrabahuhan mo na, di mo pa natanggap!

Lalo pa kami naasar ng mag-followup sa Accounting the following day. Ang sabi kelangan na lang daw namin dalhin yung hard copy ng attendance namin (dahil nga di natanggap yung email). So ayun, sa halip na umuwi at magpahinga after my shift (w/c is 5:00 ng umaga), nag-stay ako sa Teleperformance hanggang 9:00 ng umaga para hintayin mag-bukas yung hinayupak na Accounting, at finally na-submit ko rin yung copy ng lintek na attendance! Tapos nung humihingi ako ng provisioning time nung processing, hindi pa daw nila sure, kasi may mga signatories pa daw (P----g I---g red tape yan o!) And later nalaman ko na Monday pa daw malalaman (paano kung namatay na ko sa gutom by Monday?? Mamatay na sana yung nagkamali kaya nagkanda-letche-letche salary namin)! Yun tuloy nag-quit na yung friend ko.

Bad Trip talaga!

Mabait naman yung Sup ko. Hindi T-Rex katulad nung iba. Kaya lang miss ko yung former team namin...ilang araw na nga ko tinatamad pumasok (pero pumapasok pa rin ako syempre, sayang sweldo). Ano pa?? Hmm. Wala.

N-A-K-A-K-A-T-A-M-A-D. Yan ang isa pang salita na madalas pumasok sa ulo ko ngayong mga araw na 'to. Tulad ng nabanggit ko kanina, tinatamad na ko pumasok (ayan nag-rereklamo na naman ako..dyan lang talaga ko magaling eh...ewan wala na ko trabahong masiyahan ako ng tama..yung dati kung work ok naman - talentwise, nag-eenjoy ako dahil linya ko, eto naman ok salarywise - pero di ako comfortable - kaw ba naman maghapon makinig sa mga reklamo ng mga kasumpa-sumpang amerikano..heheheh...meron namang mababait, pero marami ang mga walang sibilisayon sa pag-gamit ng telepono, as in bungad pa lang sumisigaw na ala Xena!) Talaga naman.

Nung isang araw (thursday ata), muntik na ko mahulog sa bus at masagasaan ng motor. Tsk. Paano ba naman kasi ano..ang lawak ng kalsada sa sidewalk pa napili ng hinayupak na dumaan! Buti na lang nahawakan ako nung konduktor. Kung hinde na sa morge na ako. At ang weird dito ay ang naging reaksyon ko..bigla ba naman ako NAPATAWA pagkatapos akong tabanan nung konduktor...ewan ko ba, tiningnan tuloy ako nung driver at konduktor na parang may sira (sabagay ngayun ka lang makakakita ng ganito, muntik na madisgrasya ay tumawa pa!) Some kind of profound cosmic joke. Hanggang ngayon di ko pa rin maisip kung bakit ako napatawa. May isa lang magandang naidulot ito, nawala yung antok ko.

V For Vendetta: Freedom Forever! Yan ang sigaw ko ngayon! hehehe. Will be watching this one when it hits the theaters. Grabe. I love this film. And so does the critics. :D

Sa monday balik impyerno naman tayo. Nakakahinayang lang talaga mag-quit kasi nga ang daming walang work (grabe ang pila sa Job Fair sa MegaMall)....at least i'm lucky in that regard!

Ay ewan na. Daig ko pa ang pusang di mapabilang. Wala eh. Magulo. Makatalon na lang sa 20th floor...pero masakit din yun eh..nagkalat ka pa. Mabuti pa...makapamundok na lang. Naalala ko na naman yung passage sa Cold Mountain (by Charles Frazier)..."The only thing worthy of combat is the right to live unmolested..." (I guess that could be true..the only thing worth fighting for would be the right to live without being bothered). Aaaaaaah! Ano na??! Hahabaan ko na baka mga dalawang linggo na naman bago ako makapag-internet.

Pati drawing ko napapabayaan ko na! Hanggang ngayon di ko tapos si Amidala. Tsk! Bwuset! Alam mo ba 2 linggo na ko di nakakahawak ng lapis (kaya di nakapagtatakang malapit na ko masiraan ng bait!) Wala na talaga. Sa totoo lang ayoko na pumasok sa Monday (pero syempre di ko gagawin yun ano...ano ko may pahid?? Either way pero din pag pumasok ako...may pahid ako...pag hindi...may pahid pa rin ako).

REWRITE by Asian Kung-Fu Generation

(Opening theme - Full Metal Alchemist)

kishin da omoi o hakidashitai no wa
sonzai no shoumei ga ta ni nai kara
tsukan da hazu no boku no mirai wa
"songen" to "jiyuu" de nujun shiteru yo
yugan da zazou o keshi saritai no wa
jibun no genkai o soko ni miru kara
jiishiki kajou no boku no mado ni wa
kyonen no KARENDAA hidzuke ga nai yo
    Wanting to spit out the jarred thoughts is
    Because there's no other proof of my existence
    My future that I should've grabbed hold is
    Conflicting between "dignity" and "freedom"
    Wanting to erase the distorted afterimage is
    Because I'll see my limit over there
    In the window of the excessively self-conscious me
    There are no dates in last year's calendar

keshite RIRAITO shite
kudaranai chou gensou
wasurarenu sonzai kan o
kishikaisei
RIRAITO shite
imi no nai mousou mo
kimi o nasu dendouryoku
zenshin zenrei o kure yo
    Erase and rewrite
    The pointless ultra-fantasy
    Revive
    The unforgettable sense of being
    Rewrite
    The meaningless imagination
    The driving force that creates you
    Give it your whole body and soul

mebaete ta kanjou kitte kuyan de
shosen tada bonyou shitte naite
kusatta kokoro o
usugitanai uso o
    After cutting my feelings that grew, I regret
    After realizing that after all, I'm just a mediocrity, I cry
    A depressed heart
    A dirty lie

keshite RIRAITO shite
kudaranai chou gensou
wasurarenu sonzai kan o
kishikaisei
RIRAITO shite
imi no nai mousou mo
kimi o nasu dendouryoku
zenshin zenrei o kure yo
    Erase and rewrite
    The pointless ultra-fantasy
    Revive
    The unforgettable sense of being
    Rewrite
    The meaningless imagination
    The driving force that creates you
    Give it your whole body and soul
Pag uwi ko kahapon, wala ako ginawa kung hindi magpatugtog at manood ng Full Metal Alchemist. Miss ko na FMA. Basta any form of recreation. Dahil nga balik impyerno by Monday (maiinit talaga sa manila). Hisashiburi ja-nai..Edo-kun.

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Beautiful Disaster

He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme unknown
He's as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold

And if I try to save him
My whole world would cave in
It just ain't right
Lord,it just ain't right

Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after

But he's so beautiful
He's such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Lord, would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

He's magic and myth
He's strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than one soul should see

But do I try to change him?
It's so hard not to blame him
Hold me tight
Baby, hold me tight

Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
He's such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster?
I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm searching for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
I've waited so long

He's soft to the touch
But frayed at the ends, he breaks
He's never enough
And still he's more than I can take

Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after o-o-o
But he's so beautiful
He's such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter o-o-o
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

He's beautiful
Lord, he's so beautiful
He's beautiful

I watched the cinema right after my work... i went here in Shangrila, because ive found out that BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN is still been showing there. So, i watched alone.. Reminder i dont have any sleep yet because this just right after my graveyard shift from work.. Its so cold in the cinema, knowing that there were only 3 people in the balcony... hehehe

Damn, "WHY THERE'S SUCH A MOVIE AS BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN?' Gosh, it hit me inside... its so true... I was left crying inside the movie house after the movie... i even watched it thrice...

"LOVE IS A FORCE OF NATURE"

There is a BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN in each and everyone of us....